PishPosh06's Xanga

Long time, no talk.

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 05:34:08 GMT

Ah...Xanga.

For all you loyal readers, I broke up with Brenton. *gasp!
He's a crazy person, just so you know. I saw the signs and just ignored them.

BUT!

...it's okay, because now I have Todd.

Other than man upgrades, I've survived another semester at MTSU. I got 3 As and 2 Bs. I'm very proud. *tear... This next semester I'm going to be having some potentially tough courses, so...we'll see what happens. Please don't kill my GPA, Spring '09!! After this I have two Sciences, two Maths, and...six? Computer Sciences left. Then I'm graduating! Three semesters and counting, my friends.

I'm ready to kill my roommates. Roommate. Cynthia. I love her, she's cool, but if I live with her again I will have to kill her. So...I'm living with Heidi! I love my Heidi. She's crazy as a loon, but I understand her kind of crazy. At least she doesn't eat food that's been sitting out for a week, or ruin the endings of all the movies I want to watch (or a million other things that I won't bother naming). That's right, I got this next semester and I'm moving OUT. Hopefully into a house bike-riding distance to MTSU. Which basically means no further than where I live now.

*yawn...yawn yawn yawn

I stayed up until well past 4:00 last night. I probably only got four or five hours sleep. That may sound like enough, but my body likes double digits, man. At least eight. And here I am again, staying up when I should be sleeping. But you see...I was supposed to go back to M'boro today. And right now I would be in my Todd's arms. But no, Mom wants me to stay. So now I have no clean clothes! Mom's making me find something out of what I've left behind. There's a reason I didn't take these clothes with me. And instead of going to New Vision, I'm going to church somewhere in Tullahoma. But I do get to see Dad dress up like a wise man!

Hush, I'm trying to be positive here.

But now, I'm afraid I must go to bed. You enjoy the read, and I'll see you on the other side.

Peace, homes.

Physics: The End

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 02:04:35 GMT

Ahh...Physics is over. Blessed relief. I got a C, too. I have never been so happy to get a C in all my life. Well, except maybe Cal 2. Both classes chewed me up and spit me out. I went down fighting, though. *grrr...

So now what do I do? I have approx two months before I have to go back to math and programming and all things depressing. Yuck... I guess I'm gonna start working out and look for a job. I'm gonna start applying at movie theaters and campus jobs, I suppose. Maybe TSC. Where else?

I am excited about this month, though. My birthday is in...15 days. I'm gonna be 20! The 17th I'm gonna go see Brenton. I'm not sure what he's got planned for me, but we're gonna see The Dark Knight at the IMAX in Nashville. Yay! I love Batman, I love Heath Ledger, I love IMAX! I love Brenton, too... His family is gonna take us out to eat. I have mixed feelings, because I love food, especially when it's free, but I'm also gonna have to be dealing with his dad, who loves to make fun of how much (little) I eat.

When I get back from Brenton's I'm gonna come home and Mom and Dad are gonna take me somewhere. We were thinking about Holiday World, for no particular reason. But a theme park wouldn't be that much fun if I was the only one riding rides. But I don't really have anyone I can invite. Heidi's got a job, so she'll probably have to work, if she would even want to go. Stephanie can't afford it, and I'm sure Timmy wouldn't let her leave, anyway. Cyn's in Hawaii, and I wouldn't want her to go. Sam'll probably have work, and I don't care to be around her that much, either.

I think that's all I got going on. I've sent out my b-day list...I dunno if I'm gonna get anything off of it, though. It's worth a try. I try to put enough on it that there are a lot of options, in price and type of gift. It may look like I want lots of stuff, though...

Anywho, I'm off of here, I suppose. Y'all have a good night.

Physics, again

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 03:35:23 GMT

Physics still blows. I hate the class with a passion. But...
IT'S ALMOST OVER!
Our final is Thursday.

I got a 61 on the first exam. Which is a D in college, thankyouverymuch. The second one I stayed up until 2:00 studying the night before and I got a 71. Booyeah! Plus, he gave us extra credit, so...hopefully my grade will improve. As far as lab goes...I've gotten a 100 on every quiz but one, and all A's for labs, except for one. So that grade's pretty much set. And even if I get a D in the class, my scholarships won't be affected. Not that a D is a good thing - it's just not an end-of-the-world thing. So yay! One more exam...

Oh, the worst thing is Friday we had two labs due and our extra credit. Well, I woke up after 9:00 that morning. Class starts at 8:15... I have no idea what happened. I'm just glad I didn't wake up any later... And Dr. Montemayor, who is an amazing man, let me turn my stuff in. It made me feel bad that I kind of gave up on the last lab and did a not great job on the extra credit... But he knows my exam grades - he knows my level of Physics skill. And I love him.

So let me run this by you, invisible readers. Cori, a guy in my class, invited me to the movies with him for his birthday. It wasn't a me-and-him thing - his brothers and friends were coming, too. He lives in Nashville, so Brenton was like "Well, if you go watch the movie, you can come see me that night." That's all I needed to agree to go. We went to see Wall-E, and it's amazing movie. But I was telling someone about it and they said it was more like a date. My question is: Why can't guys and girls be friends? If a girl from class had invited me to the movies, no one would think anything. But because it's a guy it must be a date. Of course, I have come to realize that, over the years, the only guy "friends" I've had usually admit they liked me at some point. And we're only "friends" as long as they think they might have a chance. As soon as they find out I have a boyfriend, or I'm not gonna date them, they just kind of...stop talking to me. Not right away, of course, but eventually. Most of the friends I've made at MTSU have been guys, and here I am, pretty much friendless except for Brenton and my roommates.

But whatever...I'll make friends eventually. Guys or girls...whatever.

Physics

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 04:00:31 GMT

Yuck, Physics. I've been in class for a week and I'm through. I'd say I've put in 20+ hours in the WPS this week. And another two or three on homework. I should have been doing a lot more, homework though. I've started on it tonight, though! Better late than never, anyway. We have our first test Wednesday. The worst part about this class (other than the time) is we're only getting three grades for the entire "semester" We have two exams that are 35%, then the final is 30%. So there's a lot of pressure to do well on this exam. Plus, there's only five or six questions. But it's gonna take us two hours to get through the thing. Oh, well. I will survive. And if I don't...well, that's not an option. I can pull at least a C out of my butt for this class. Hopefully a B. An A? Doubtful. But maybe!

Other than that I don't have anything going on. I wanted to get a job this summer, but now I think it's better than I didn't, because I wouldn't want to have to split time between this class and a job. There's no way...

There are a couple weddings coming up, though. Not mine, yet. Jessica is getting married next weekend, and Jason the next. I can't believe my baby brother (who is 11 years older than I am) is getting married! After the weddings I don't really have anything big going on for the rest of the summer. We may do something for my birthday, I dunno. I'm turning 20! I'm not gonna be a teenager anymore!

I would go on, but I have homework to do...

Too Soon

Wed, 21 May 2008 04:56:03 GMT

It's too soon for another one of these. I just did one like...two days ago, or something. But that was when I was bored in Murfreesboro. Now I'm bored at home. That calls for another entry.

Tonight was the GCHS graduation. Woop Woop Let's see...Jordan, Sara, Christina, several others that I wasn't close friends with, but still friends. They all graduated. Apparently I like people two years younger than me. Or two years older, in Brenton's case. Heidi graduates from SAS Sunday. I'm gonna miss it, and it makes me sad. But I can't pass up a free trip to Florida.

I can't believe it's been two years since I graduated! I'm so...old. Halfway through college, too. What am I going to do with my life? I can't even get a summer job - how am I supposed to be starting a career?? Blech.

I've changed a lot since high school. I'm glad, too. I was a strange one. I feel much more extroverted now. More comfortable with myself. College has been good for me, I think. There are some things I wish I hadn't done...some changes that I don't like, but all-in-all it's good stuff. I couldn't go back. The thought of reliving high school is...terrifying. Never again am I going to have to be that person. What a relief.

I'm not sure why I'm on here rambling about how crappy high school was. I could go to bed. I think that's what I'm going to do...

Just waiting...

Sun, 18 May 2008 04:48:31 GMT

My summer's going to get more busy, just you wait. Right now it's misery...I've got no job, no one in town to hang out with, nothing to do. I can't even watch TV except for channels 17, 30, and 58. 17 is so static-y it's black and white, 30 is in color, but fuzzy. 58 does come in very clearly, which is awesome, but still...there's only so much good on one channel. And that's my no cable rant for this month.

Cynthia's gone home for the summer, which is nice in a way. I needed a break from her. I know, I'm horrible. She's a good friend, but one of the friends you need a break from every now and then, you know? But that just leaves me here with Sam and Jen. Sam's her own mess of goodness, and Jen is never around. I get to see Brenton hardly ever, since he's graduated and moved back home to get a job. I did go watch a movie with Lauren and Jeff and a few other people yesterday, but...whatever. They're not close friends. I don't feel comfortable calling anyone up right now, just to talk. Not even Brenton. He doesn't like to not have a reason to be talking. Even if I haven't seen him in two weeks, if we've run out of topics, off the phone. Jerk...

This no job stuff is killing me. I hate doing anything because I know it's just money leaving my account - nothing ever comes back in. Mom said they will help me with rent if I need it, and I probably will. The worst part is I just accepted my scholarships for next semester and I'm getting $9,000. But that's not until August. I'll have all kinds of money in August. I'll just be living off ramen until then. If I don't get a job by next week I'm going to start a pet/house sitting business. I was going to do it my senior year in high school, but it never worked out. I'm desperate enough now to give it a go.

But my summer will be getting more busy. Starting tomorrow, actually. I have church in the morning, then the college group. I hope they still meet...it's been several weeks since I've been. Tomorrow night I'm gonna go see Brenton, because it's going to be at least two weeks until I can see him again. He has Monday off, so I'm either going to leave that night or Tuesday morning. Tuesday night is Grundy's graduation, so I'm going to go home that afternoon. I'll stay home for the rest of the week, because I'm going with Mom and a group from the high school to Dollywood. Woot Woot Hopefully I can fit in a dentist and eye doctor appt while I'm home.

The next week Amy invited me to go to Florida with her and Michael, all expense paid if I watch Tristan while they go on dates. It's their three-year anniversary. Awww... And yay for me - free trip!

June 2 my class starts. So for a month I'll be in class at 8:15. Ugh. Physics, too. Why did I do this to myself?

Jessica and Curt are getting married June 14 and Jason and Kristin are getting married June 21, so I'll be all wedding'd out by the end of June.

July 3 is my last day of class. Yay! At some point in July I want to do something fun for my birthday. I'll be 20...whoa. I'm not gonna be a teenager anymore. How depressing... Mom was talking about maybe going to Florida. Which is kind of amusing...I don't know the last time I was in Florida, and now I could go twice in two months. She was also talking about some place up in Kentucky, or Branson, Missouri. She's going to have a conference in NC for a week in July, but I think we've ruled that out based on the fact that there's nothing to do up there.

I think that's all I've got for tonight. Hope you've enjoyed.

I've got a loooong summer looming on the horizon...

Tue, 13 May 2008 03:22:31 GMT

Well, I survived Spring '08. With fairly flying colors, too. I got A's in Social Dance (*whew) and Intro to Music (that IS good news - I was afraid I was gonna get a B because I missed a concert). I got a B in Discrete Structures, which is what I knew I was going to get. I got a B+ in Advanced Data Structures, which is aMAzing - I was afraid I was gonna get a C or a D in that class. But a B+ rox my sox. AND...I got a C in Calculus II, which I am absoLUTEly pleased about. Dr. Lea sucked...

Brenton graduated on May 3, which means he's not going to be around anymore. He has moved back home and taken a management position at Party City, where he's going to work for at least a year. He may be there longer, depending on if it pays more than a teaching job. I guess this is a good test of our relationship. If we can last two years *mostly* apart, then I think we're gonna make it. Two years is a long time...

I'm home - for now. I'm gonna head back to Murfreesboro tomorrow sometime. I was going to wait for Mom to get home from her trip, but she said it would be 5:00 or 6:00, so I'm probably going to leave before then. I don't really know what I'm going to do once I get there... I'm looking for work. I've applied to about...8 or 9 places, but no one's called me - yet. I feel like if I'm in the same city it's more likely to happen, or something. And when I'm home I feel like I revert back to my high-school self, which I don't like. I just sit on my butt in front of the TV or computer and don't do squat all day. I'm gonna start working out and laying out when I get back. Since I'm not going to be in band, I'm dependent on willpower to exercise and get a tan. So looks like I'm gonna be flabby and pale this year.

*yawn

I guess that's about it for tonight.

Spring, Summer, Fall?

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 15:12:59 GMT

Ah...the spring semester is almost over. I have 3 days of classes, then a week of finals, then FREEDOM! I am looking for a job, though. Not very hard...I applied to the clinic where Amy works, and I want a job there, so I'm afraid if I start looking for other jobs I'll get other ones and not this one. Or something like that, lol. (I'm lazy.)

This summer I'm taking a class - Calculus-Based Physics I. Doesn't that sound fun? Oh, I know it will be. All I have to do is survive this semester and I'll be done with Calculus...hopefully. I still need to talk to my minor advisor about what math classes I need to take. I'm done with the two Calculus I HAVE to have, and I'm taking stats in the fall. I still need 7 hours of math, though.

The fall semester is gonna be awesome, though. I have no TR classes, and only two on F. So here's my schedule:

Beginning Pilates
- MW 8:00-8:55
Probability and Statistics
- MWF 9:10-10:05
Software Engineering
- MWF 10:20-11:15
Social, Ethical, and Legal Implications of Computing
- MW 12:40-1:35
Assembly Language
- MW 2:20-3:45
Introduction to Artificial Intelligence
- MW 6:00-7:25

I'm taking pilates because...well, look at all those classes - does that sound like a fun semester to you?!
Stats isn't going to be fun at all. But it's one step closer to being done with my minor (and major, for that matter).
Software Engineering...I have no idea what that is, but it sounds hard and boring.
S, E, and L Implications...blah, blah, blah. BS course that is canceled half the time, but needed for my major.
Assembly - IDK...?
Intro to AI - upper-division elective that fits in my schedule. Also, a class I can (and probably will) drop.

Alright, I guess that's all.

Oh - if you didn't notice...I can't take band next year! I have to take Assembly, and it is strategically placed in such a way that there is no way I could take band. Is very unfortunate and I'm horribly upset about it.

NOW I'm done, and I need to go take a shower and work on some homework.

Social Dance

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 14:26:10 GMT

Ah, the long-awaited social dance entry.
Well...long-awaited by me, anyway.

I have to say I love dance class. I'm not ashamed to admit it. I suck at dancing, but the class is amazing. And there are actually enough guys for all the girls, which usually doesn't happen. Tim Star is there, though. And Gabriel... And a really sweaty guy and a hairy guy that likes to get too close. But I've only had to dance with them (minus Gabriel-we'll come back to that) once.

I usually dance with Andy, who is this awesome little Asian guy. I do have a thing for Asians, don't I? Anyway, he's fairly short and looks like he's a Freshman, but he's older than Brenton by a month or two. Cynthia's in the class, too, and she dances with this guy named Trey. She liked him for awhile, but nothing was developing, so she kind of lost interest.

Now back to Gabriel. I've got nothing against him as a person, but the boy cannot dance. And he misses days, which definitely doesn't help. But somehow he always manages to come when Andy's not there and I get to dance with him. Oh, joy. >.< But Wednesday Andy and Trey were both absent, plus another guy. So there were 3 females for Gabriel to choose from. Cynthia and I chose to dance together... We are amazing, though. We totally kicked butt.

And now I shall leave you.

Advanced Data Structures (and spring break)

Sun, 02 Mar 2008 23:11:03 GMT

CSCI 3110, for those of you who don't know.

I have good ol' Dr. Dong again this semester. I love that little Asian man, what can I say? 3110 is about a million times more sucky than 2170. I have a project due after break. Can't I just have a week off? As far as annoying people there is this chick...I don't know her name, but she's obnoxious. She's really loud and...loud. She talks all the time. And she always comes in late. So one day she actually gets there about 5min early and she's going on and on about how dorky she feels for getting there early, blah blah blah. Does she not realize she's talking to people that are in there early as well? So she's dumb. And a know-it-all. But whatever.

As far as break goes...not a lot's going on. Let's see...I got here Friday night and filled out my FAFSA. That was a bucket of thrills... Then Saturday I *got* to go with Mom up to the high school to get some things. That evening we went to Winchester to some Emmaus thing. Free food. Today I had church, then I went to Heidi's house and then she came here and all the Parsons were here and we just had a blast. At some point this week we're going to Huntsville, and I think we're gonna go to Gatlinburg and try to ski next weekend. Then it's back to classes until May. *sad face